Have you ever seen that ancient
movie, where that guy screams, "you can't handle the truth!"? I have.
I've never actually believed that the truth couldn't be handled. I've always
been an idealist, wanting freedom, equality and, most of all, justice for all.
After all, that's what encouraged me to become a lawyer.
Law today is a lot better than
law was in 2010 - it’s a whole lot easier to resolve disputes. Back then, at
least according to B2T5, the professor emeritus of my law school, people would
place their hands on a book and agree to not lie in their testimony of what
happened. How stupid was that? Can you imagine just having fate in some
completely unverified witness to tell the truth, the whole truth, and nothing
but the truth? I cannot. It seems absurd and it seems wrong. Furthermore, it
strikes me as very inefficient.
When I was 18, I gradated at the
top of my class from law school. I was immature, and confused – living in a
whirlwind of ideals, and preconceived notions about the apparent functions and
uses of adulthood. Ever since I was 13, I had wanted to be lawyer. Mostly
because that was the time in which the BrainScan-It was being developed. Each
night, while watching the news, they would talk about how this was the next big
thing in law, how the rates of crime would decrease dramatically, how all
reasonable doubt would be eliminated from court cases. It seemed like the
perfect option.
The news was already being
broadcasted via hologram to each citizen’s living room, take-out was as easy as
pushing a few buttons on your building’s vending machine, and learning a new
skill was as easy as attending a “hologram hall” -just like an ancient lecture
hall, except in the comfort of your home with the prof appearing in front of
you- for a few months.
They had determined that the
youth learn best from TV. From the mistakes of the past generations, we were
being bettered as a society. In the past, adults couldn’t even vaguely recall
the structure of a plant cell that they learned in school, but that they could
remember the slogan of every commercial. Some education reform groups argued
that that was as a result of the different relaxation level of the pupil in
their home and at an outside-facility. Others argued that it was simply because
TV, no matter the place, was more engaging. So they reached a consensus:
Holograms for students in the comforts of their own homes. And they were right!
Within a few years, children were learning more, faster, and it wasn’t long
before the education board deemed general school durations to be shortened. By
the time you were 13, you had enough knowledge to know exactly what you want to
specialize in and do it. By the time you were 18, you could graduate with a law
degree and begin practice.
So in 2102, I was a graduate of
law. Finally, I could begin to work and reap the miraculous benefits of the
BrainScan-It. I was going to put the worst of the worst into jail. I was going
to perform my civic duty and achieve my life’s purpose of bringing wretched
humans to justice. Moreover, I was never going to reach a moral dilemma because
I would always know that the right thing had been done. And, for the most part,
things had been going exactly as I had thought they would.
My father and his mom raised me,
I never knew my mother. My father had told me, when I was 25, that she had been
deemed killed when I was a year old. They had never caught the guy. In fact,
they had never even found a body. I had hoped, with my entire soul that I could
one day bring the person responsible for my mom’s murder to justice. Actually,
I had wanted to kill that person myself for depriving me of a mother, for
limiting me in my personal growth. But I couldn’t do that because I never knew
who that horrid person was.
It was a cloudy day when my
mother’s body was found. A serene sort of day when everything feels at ease,
but not that good kind of calm – the kind of calm that serves as a memo to the
storm ahead. The sky was the perfect shade of gray, a slightly lighter color
than concrete, which would imply that it was going to become sunny in the near
future. Nonetheless, at the time it was calming and I had gone out with Quinn,
my best friend of a long time. (My future wife would go on to describe Quinn as
“pretty” for his girlish features and perfect, tan skin. I started to see it
myself as I got older and the stigma of judging guys’ physical appearance
started to wear off – he was like a work of art: flawlessly beautiful.)
Anyways, my house was being renovated, actually demolished, so I had no choice
to stay in, but then again, I wouldn’t have wanted to stay in on a day like
that. I had earned enough money in my 10 years of law that I could afford
something more lavish, and as any guy in that age, I wanted to show-off.
Quinn and I were sorts of
hipsters. Unlike our peers, we preferred to travel to the “Space Bagel”, a
bagel store on the other side of town. Our other friends would just order from
the building vending machine; they were too lazy to make the 7-minute transport
to Space Bagel, but Quinn and I were not. There was something nostalgic about
going there, and we found the seven minutes and thirty-six seconds of travel to
be nice downtime for chatting about girls we slept with recently, assholes who
were giving us hard-times, why they hadn’t managed to find a way to alter the
weather yet and so on. That day was especially funny; in fact, it was like a
sort of foreshadowing to the events, which would manifest themselves in the
next few hours.
Quinn started rambling, in his
usual demeanor, about all the real chicks I could score in my new crib. It was
customary to him to blurt out a kooky laugh in the midst of a sentence. He was
one of those people who laughed at everything: his own jokes, even if no one
else did, other peoples’ jokes and even hard facts sometimes. I remember that,
even in elementary, we would call Quinn “Quirky Quinn”, for his enthrallment
with the past. Something drew him to the ways of life 150 years ago. He never
wanted to take the efficient path. When he was younger and we were playing,
Quinn always wanted to play with the yellow school bus instead of the
spaceships. I never understood him, neither did anyone else; he was peculiar in
that sense, and it’s probably under his influence that I started to see the
seven minutes and thirty-six seconds of chatting, not as a waste, but as a
reward.
During our Space Bagel rendezvous
I got a call. The phone spoke to me to inform me that it was 7RY21Q, the
manager of the demolition crew working on my house. I answered
“3BX67T?”
“Yes, speaking?”
“I’d rather not discuss this
matter on the phone, but something alarming has come up with regards to the
demolition and we would appreciate your presence.”
“Alright, I’ll be there in 10
minutes”
And he hung up.
Quinn inquired what had happened.
I shrugged and laughed it off by saying “incompetence”. Quinn greeted the
response in his usual way – by cachinnating. We had been taught from an early
age that fear was the enemy of progress and therefore I didn’t fear the fact
that something so mysterious had come up that my presence was necessary.
We packed up our stuff and made
it onto the transport.
On the transport back, Quinn got
a message from a girl, requesting some sort of comfort after breaking up with
her boyfriend. It was too good an offer to pass up on for him, so, with a wink;
he quickly diverted transports and headed over like a knight in shining armor
to help this damsel in distress. I travelled, gazing out at the seemingly
endless sky.
When I got to the site of my
future home, I discovered the entire crew standing idly.
“What’s the problem?” I inquired.
“We can’t demolish this part of
the wall.” He obediently responded.
“Why? Something to do with pipes,
or…?”
“Actually, there seems to be some
sort of steel encasement in the wall. We didn’t want to demolish until we
checked to see that this wasn’t something important to you”
“I inherited the place from my
dad when he retired and moved, but I don’t know anything about this.”
“Ok, so would you like us to
continue the demolition process?”
“I guess, but try and keep the
box together, I want to see what it is.”
“As you wish, sir.”
A few whacks later, nothing
remained of the house I had once known except a steel box. After a relentless
attack by crowbar by a Middle-Eastern looking man, the box opened.
Inside was a perfectly preserved,
mummified corpse. I didn’t see the body behind the wrapped bandages, nor would
I have wanted to, but common sense told me that it was perfectly preserved
because of the lack of exposure to the elements. Whoever had killed the person
had obviously put a lot of effort into keeping them beautiful. After some
inspection by the police and the Coroner’s office it was found to be my
mother’s body. My mother’s body in my father’s house. In my state of terror, I
immediately assumed that suspicion would fall to me first, and that, that was
scary, but naturally it didn’t. Looking back, I think that that is what I
regret the most: the fact that my first reaction to my mother’s corpse was not
one of sadness or grief, but one of selfish fear.
After a few weeks, the dust had
settled. My mom was discarded, as all dead bodies were, to outer space. The
prime suspect, my own father, was in custody, along with his assumed
accomplice, his mom. I was the prosecutor in charge.
Despite the fact that my superior
was an android, he had had enough humanity to ask me if I had wanted to take on
the case, if I felt fit to do so, if my human emotions could be pushed aside in
favor of unraveling the truth. My first instinct was no. How could I ever use a
cool head to bring my father to justice for the murder of anyone, let alone my
mother? But that was the fear inside of me talking, and fear is the enemy of
progress. I was in no position to block progress; I had no right to do so. I
was a prosecutor. I signed up knowing I’d have to deal with gruesome
situations. I signed up with the intention of doing what was right. I was a
servant of the state, and nothing was to come between that. My parents were my
parents, but more importantly they were citizens, citizens like you, like me,
like Quinn, like the waitress in the Space Bagel and like everyone else. They
were not above the law, and I was not to let them be. Equality is prosperity,
and giving my parents’ case special privilege was not treating them as
equals.
Naturally, Quinn was strongly
opposed to me taking on the case. He spoke about emotions, and with utter
disregard for the ideals of our nation. He said that treating people as equals
was important, of course, but that these were my parents, not just some
strangers. He claimed, with complete confidence, that this case would be the
end of me. That the sheer horror I’d go through would change our relationship,
my career and me. He begged me pass up on the case and let someone else handle
it.
“No one would blame you.” He
announced.
“But I would blame myself. I
can’t stick my head in the sand. They’re my parents!” I refuted him.
And it was with that statement
that I agreed to take on the case of my parents.
I went to Quinn’s house, my
makeshift workspace until construction of my property was completed. Despite
Quinn’s opposition to my decision, he did let me use his house to work, but our
relationship was becoming increasingly strained and tense. I set up my case
file. All signs pointed to my dad. I knew how this would turn out. No amount of
hope would change that.
The day had finally come. I went
to the Earth holding facility where my dad was being held for the BrainScan-It
to work it’s magic. I asked him to recount the events leading up to the murder
of my mother, and without hesitation, in an almost obliged tone he responded:
“Ilya, you know that I love you.
But I never loved your mother. She was never fit to be a mother. She was crazy:
in love with the past, living in a constant state of fear, an obstacle in the
path of progress. She loved you more than other children, and opposed equality
as a by-product. But she had the perfect gene set-up. She was beautiful, and
her I.Q. was exponentially high. Her hopeless romanticism allowed me to woo
her, and you were born. For the first year of your life, we needed her to feed
you, but after that Lucille and I could manage. I couldn’t let her have a say
in how you were raised, to let her poison you with some ideals of the past. She was crazy. Lucille was the epitome of a
perfect mother; her raising you was a much safer idea. We were great parents –
you’d attest to that, surely. Your mother is Lucille. Clare was simply your
gene donor.”
The BrainScan-It beeped. At this
point an inexplicable fear struck my heart. My mind flooded with memories and
thoughts about our society. It was as if time stopped and everything
disappeared. I could feel and hear my own heart beating; my head felt like it
was submerged under water. My father’s conformity to the ideals of the state
had justified murder in his mind; murder of a person, who now seemed strikingly
similar to my best friend.
“But why kill her?”
“That wasn’t supposed to happen.
I wanted to simply divorce her and take custody of you, but she refused. She
felt a puzzling intimacy towards you and refused to give me custody. I asked
mom what to do and she said we had no choice.”
The BrainScan-It let out another
beep.
“Lucille told you to do this?”
“Please don’t call her Lucille,
she’s ‘mom’ to you. Well, we were left with no choice, Clare was incredibly
persistent.”
Another beep.
“I was her son, why wouldn’t she
persist?”
“You see, her genes were great,
except for this part. You seem to have the same sort of passé view. You were
her son, but you were a citizen like everyone else. I know that she would not
have persisted if you weren’t her son.”
A final little beep protruded
from the BrainScan-It. It was the signal that the statement made by the subject
was true. I looked at him; at his stoic eyes, his remorseless lips, and his
sterile, brainwashed figure. My mind raced, my blood boiled and I frantically
looked around the room, desperate to find something to kill him with. But there
was nothing. The rooms were designed to keep the peace. And so I fantasized.
“You’ll have to forgive me
someday, Ilya. You’ll see that what I did was good.”
I frapped the door for the guard
to let me out and after a small intermission, where I spilled tears onto the
ground; I made my way to Lucille’s holding cell.
“Ilya, darling, you do look
charming today!” She proclaimed.
“Lucille, you encouraged John to
kill my mother, didn’t you?”
“Darling, I know you’re upset but
that’s no reason to not call me ‘mom’. And I did, only because she left us with
no choice and we wanted what was best for you. That woman was no good for you,
or your dad“
Again, I frapped on the door and
was let out by the guard.
I realized that, in a way, she
was the mastermind of it all. My father was weak and succumbed to all of her
commands. I hated them both and did my utmost to make sure that their sentences
were maximal. My lengthy career had given me a definite intimacy with judges,
so they heeded my recommendations for sentences almost blindly. I came to the
conclusion that the greatest punishment for them both was to separate them, so
I requested that they be sent to different outer space prisoner colonies and my
request was accepted. They wailed when being separated and I realized that the
only person either of them could ever truly love was the other.
At their final goodbyes to me
they were noticeably angry and refused to communicate with me, rather continued
weeping at their separation. I went to my father and I said one thing to him:
“Don’t cry, she’s just another
citizen – you wouldn’t cry if it wasn’t her.” And I left the room.
When I got to Quinn’s house, I
decided that I should try and make amends, but I never really succeeded. As the
days progressed, our affair drifted further and further apart. We went separate
ways. This wasn't a messy and vile case of friends becoming foes – it was a
drifting apart. Slow and steady, but sure. The type of scenario where, after
the friendship, there are no hard feelings, no backstabbing, no gossip - just
neutrality. In hindsight, Quinn was right: that case took away my morality and
my humanity – it changed me. I was different.
Despite everything, I do not
regret for one moment disregarding Quinn’s advice and taking on the case. I was
brave, as I should’ve been. I saw the travesties that exist in the world and I
am glad to have done so. I couldn’t have lived my life with my proverbial head
in the proverbial sand.
After that case, I retired. I had
enough money, I had a house (minus a mummy) and I had met a girl.
I never heard, nor did I try to
hear, what happened to Lucille and John. I heard that Quinn had gotten married,
had a few kids and encouraged them to study history. I did see him, only once
after though, at a bar, while on vacation with his family. I invited them over
to our place, but Quinn said that they couldn’t make it.
I felt like I had received my,
not daily, not weekly, not yearly, but lifetime dose of evil, and as if I
didn’t need any anymore, ever. When my girlfriend got pregnant with our first
kid, we moved out to a tropical place; leaving everything behind. We started
life anew. When our daughter was born, I felt as if my life was complete and as
if everything was somehow going to work itself out – and it did. We lived
completely carefree, and I still do, as a very happy, very proud grandpa of
three.